I hate myself.

Argh. Fuck.

I'm looking for something that I've lost a long time ago, but I don't know what it is. Every night I have the same dream, over and over again. Will it be something in the future which I am about to encounter? Was it something in the past which I've forgotten? Or perhaps it's something that is happening now and it wants me to find out.

Could not sleep well. Waking up every now and then. Could it be my end has finally come?